Time for a Change.

Today started out well enough. New shirt. Lol. I feel like a zombie walking around school..I'm just going through the motions. I can't seem to change. That's awful, I'm jeapordizing my future and I seem to be okay with that. Somethings clearly wrong here. The best part of my day was lunch, which I spent with jackie. I can't help but smile around her and then she makes fun of me for my braces. Haha. I hateee them. things went downhill from there. I went to practice already worn down and lost the second round wrestle off. There goes the "A" spot. So this opened my eyes and has made me determined to work harder and push myself further. Even if it kills me. Exhausted and sore,
Goodnight.

The Bitter Taste of Losing

So today was whatever. I was mad at lunch because the bitch janitor lady didn't let me and jeremy go out! Oh well. It got worse during practice when I lost my wrestle off....3-0. I was so mad at myself, I thought I wanted to beat him, but not enough apparently. More mental training tonight. I've always had this mental block of wrestling people in our room I know are better than me. I need to break that and get past it. When I got home I was dead tired. Jackie called and brightened up the evening. I'm dead tired and need sleep! Haha. No one is evening following this so I don't know why I bother. I feel like I'm talking to myself, but you meet the best people that way, right? (: haha now I'm even telling myself jokes to make myself feel better. How pathetic. I'm delrious. Lol.

Goodnight.